"I know you through and through. I know everything about you. The very hairs of your head I have numbered. Nothing in your life is unimportant to Me. I have followed you through the years, and I have always loved you - even in your wanderings.
...I know what is in your heart - I know your loneliness and all your hurts - the rejections, the judgments, the humiliations, I carried it all before you. And I carried it all for you, so you might share My strength and victory.
...I Thirst for You. Yes, that is the only way to even begin to describe My love for you. I THIRST FOR YOU. I thirst to love you and to be loved by you - that is how precious you are to Me. I THIRST FOR YOU. Come to Me, and I will fill your heart and heal your wounds. I will make you a new creation, and give you peace, even in all your trials. I THIRST FOR YOU. You must never doubt My mercy, My acceptance of you, My desire to forgive, My longing to bless you and live My life in you. I THIRST FOR YOU. If you feel unimportant in the eyes of the world, that matters not at all. For Me, there is no one any more important in the entire world than you. I THIRST FOR YOU. Open to Me, come to Me, thirst for Me, give Me your life - and I will prove to you how important you are to My heart."
~~from I Thirst for You by Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta
Today I had the joy of attending a Catholic Homeschooling Mother's Retreat. Unlike two years ago, I could only attend for the day, but I am so glad I went!
First, I saw mothers I have sorely missed since moving last summer. It was wonderful to reconnect, and felt as if I had just seen them yesterday.
Above all, it was such a blessing to have silence, reflection, and prayer.
For me, the day started off at a very early 4:30 a.m. so I could make the 2+ hour drive. I would have preferred staying the night (which is part of the retreat package) but my little Miss Z is not ready to give me up and she is definitely not retreat material (this girl screams her lungs out at a mass).
The drive was very nice: praying a rosary, singing songs, and, oh yeah, miss hitting a baby deer by an inch, and then nearly having a heart attack when a rabbit skittered in front of my van. Obviously, no harm done as I am sitting in front of my computer back home, safe and sound.
On the retreat schedule today was the rosary, followed by Mass, breakfast, a guest speaker (on the topic, "I thirst"), lunch, plenty of meditative time - sorely, sorely needed!, and finishing up with the divine mercy chaplet, which was sung and so, so beautiful. I know many are rosary fans, but the chaplet... oh, I just love it.
Anyhow... here I am, relishing the day, and sharing it with you. Thank you, Katie!!! Katie is one of the retreat coordinators who reads my blog. I know how much work you do for Opus. What a blessing for all these mothers - and our families. I sure do miss you guys.
I took no pictures. My phone/camera was off limits per my own instruction. I wanted total isolation. But I did jot a few random thoughts that I am posting for my own sake.
Seeking God first always.
Academics are good, but not the most important.
Am I a reflection of God or of who I think I should be? Do I strive to do good or to look good in the eyes of others?
Go slowly - at their level - when sharing the faith.
Listening ... Distraction...
Sacrifice. Giving up my plans. How do I react when plans change?
Physical pain of knowing someone I love purposefully separates himself from God. Resentment. Offering it up to God. Only He can heal, and change, this person's heart.
Oh, the gift of life. The babies... How can such sweetness cause such an aching in my heart?
"All your life I have been looking for your love - I have never stopped seeking to love you and be loved by you. You have tried many other things in your search for happiness; why not try opening your heart to Me, right now, more than you ever have before.
Whenever you do open the door of your heart, whenever you come close enough, you will hear Me say to you again and again, not in mere human words but in spirit. 'No matter what you have done, I love you for your own sake. Come to Me with your misery and your sins, with your troubles and needs, and with all your longing to be loved. I stand at the door of your heart and knock. Open to Me, for I THIRST FOR YOU..."
~~More from Blessed Mother Theresa